What idiot thing do you worry about the Boys about?

[BSBGeezerFan]

1. Whether the Tampa Bay Bucs win or not.
2. That Howie is gonna miss some important cultural reference in an interview someday because he doesn't watch tv that much.
3. When AJ's diet is going to catch up with him.
4. Whether Kevin goes through the week without something causing him to smile.
5. This is REALLY stupid. When there is an earthquake in Las Vegas or a hurricane in Florida and the Boys are there I freak.
6. Whether Howie's luggage gets there when he does.
7. What piece of evil Jive is going to cook up for our heroes today.

[AshieBSB]

8.Whether Howie's having a good hair day or not. (hehe)
9.That AJ's smoking doesn't ruin his voice later on.
10.That AJ's and Nick's exes (Mandy and Amanda) don't come back and ruin their lives all over again.
11.That they feel like they have no support..when we're all here right by their side! :)
12.If they're down or not by being slammed by critics.

[Kev's Speedo]

This might sound weird, but I worry about Kevin not knowing his own religious beliefs right now. I always thought that he was a strong Baptist like Brian, but after reading the RS article, I can't think that anymore. I just hope that he finds what he truly believes in and is at peace.

[Edited by Kev's Speedo on November 26th, 2000 at 09:21 PM]

[WantBigDaddyKevANDHisCuz]

1. whether leighanne will leave brian when he really lets her know he wants to settle down and have kids
2.whether nick will go back to mandy
3.whether aj will work out his emotions and slow down on the drinking (his liver and kidneys are paying big time for his fun)
4.what will happen when any of them (especially kev) lose another extremely close family member


ok, so these are major things i worry about when it comes to the boys...i think about everything from small to large

[BSBGeezerFan]

(sigh) I said idiot things, but I'll bite. KS, you are absolutely right on. The Boy has gone fruit loops. Thank God for his brother Tim. I don't know what happened but I hope he comes to his senses soon.

Dollars to doughnuts Nick goes back to her. I've said before they don't come more committed and he's always had it BAD. He's like Brian in his devotion no matter how she treats him (he's no angel, mind).

I'm telling you Howie really worries/puzzles me because he is not acting according to the way he should. Having come from a large, loving Catholic Irish-Puerto Rican family, why is this Boy not making major nesting noises? He should have been settling before some of the rest of them. Something is not right here. Playah just don't FIT, you know what I mean?

[Edited by BSBGeezerFan on November 26th, 2000 at 09:24 PM]

[Kev's Speedo]

I'm just glad Tim checks up on him. And I'm glad that he has a conscience. He's a good guy and not a jerk, so I think he'll be fine. I have to find a way to bring that guy to his senses! I bet this irritates Brian to no end.

[LUVtheCARTERsmile]

13- if nick's nintendo is compatable with the tv
14- if aj's hair matches his wardrobe
15- if aj's getting another tattoo (don't want him getting hurt)
16- if the cd doesn't break the record will they be ok?
17- is n'sync dissing them?
18- is nick getting along with his mom
19- are tyke and litty leigh doin ok?

[CSUchica]

Has AJ ever woken up to look at Amanda and ask himself "What does her face look like under there?"

Would Nick be interested in a little "cafe con leche" :D

Will Kevin's feelings about Lou Pearlman drive him nuts

AJ: Same Nick question :D

Do they read "mature" fan fics- does it have an effect on them

Do they know just how much they are loved

How did Howie get into the Limp Party @ the playboy mansion?

Do they use fabric softener in their laundry (Dumb I know but I still wonder)

What on EARTH did Nick and AJ eat on Turkey Day (somehow the only thing I see Mandy and Mary Kay making from scratch are reservations

If Brian watched the KY/GA football game, and who did he route for?

Has Brian done any sightseeing at any GA landmarks

That maturity deficient fans (AKA teenyboppers) don't mean to act demented, they just can't help it

[PopStar00]

-Is Bri gettin time to go to church?

-Is Nick going to get another tatoo? (Please god no)

-Does Kevin have a big enough mirror for the bus?

-Is Howie having time to find an elephant for his mom in every city?

-Is Aj still buying mascara to fill in his facial hair? (I don't worry about this one, I just wonder...)

[trisgrace]

I think I worry the most about Kevin's emotional health. He seems to carry so much 'baggage'.
I also worry that they'll forget to enjoy the simple pleasures and that their priorities will get screwed up.

[annag02]

-- exactly how much torture and pressure did the guys put Brian through after he wouldn't pose with for the "tasteful" (WTF?!) RS pic?

-- are Brian's feelings hurt b/c of all the teasing and torture the guys put him through after that?

-- does Nick feel really bad about the RS article and worry about how all this will affect his fans? (hell, i would)

-- does Nick go to HS reunions, considering no one remembers him after age 12?

-- how many of them kept a journal/diary entry they wrote the FIRST day they met another one of the bsb? (ex: the 1st day Brian showed up, was Nick's journal full of "omigod he's such a loser..."; I wonder cuz all my best friends now hated me at 1st)

-- when was the last time Nick cried and what for?

-- are any of them one of those ppl who really do have great voices but think they can't sing worth ''''? (ehem... Kevin)

-- since when can Nick sing that high?!!!!!!! check out Shining Star at 2:32

-- how come we haven't heard their favorite songs on BnB yet?

[trisgrace]

annag02 - I think you're right about Kevin and it really didn't occur to me until B&B came out. I wondered why we didn't hear him like we did the others. Do you think he doubts his abilities?

[daydreambeliever]

I have to admit i was fretting about them the whole time they were on the plane for that whirlwind tour of theirs...when they finally touched down back in the good ol USA i was so relieved.

[Requiem]

i worry about there safety alot especially when they have to travel by plane & then i worry about some lunatic fan trying to attack the guys.
AJ i worry about him the most,b/c i know i shouldnt believe all the rumors about him screwing all these different chicas and what not.but it makes ya think some of it might be actually true.and i dont want AJ to catch any STD's.i want him to stay healthy and happy.

[Edited by Requiem on November 27th, 2000 at 08:21 AM]

[jdene]

I never seem to worry too much about Brian. I think his faith and his love for his family and friends will carry him through almost anything.

I worry whether or not Howie has actually grieved for his sister Caroline enough. Has he had the opportunity to truly deal with her death? (I know everyone is different - Kev still seems to struggle with his father's death sometimes, even almost 10 years later.) I also worry whether or not any of the "gay" or "troll" references bother him and whether or not it bothers him he seems to be everyone's "least favorite" BSB. I really hope not because he truly is a wonderful, special, incredibly talented individual.

After the RS article and his breakup, I'm worry a lot lately about AJ. There have been times over the past couple of weeks that he has seemed really down and definitely not himself. Other times, he seems just fine. (Maybe just the crazy schedule they're keeping?) I just pray he's not bottling everything up inside and letting it all build up. I also hope he's not turning to the artifical substances to mask whatever pain he's feeling. I think it's terrific that he and Nick seem to be getting closer lately. I'm glad they're spending time together (especially over the holidays which can be really tough times to be alone, believe me) and that they have each other to lean on.

Kevin? What can I say? I always thought Kev was the strong one ... The Rock (not Roc) in the group so to speak. Something seems to have happened there and I'm like some of the rest of you, I'm kinda at a loss to figure it out. He's changed, a lot, over the past months. Not only in appearance, but in attitude. Some changes are improvements, others are not. He seems to have more of a "so what" or "i really don't give a crap" attitude now - saying what's on his mind and never mincing words. That's good. But when that comes at the expense of your "brothers", that's not so good. Kev seems to be a little lost at the moment and I'm not sure why. That worries me.

Nick has always worried me the most. Maybe because he was so young when he started and has been treated more like a commodity than anything else. I definitely turn into my mother lioness mode when it comes to Nick. I worry whether he spends even one moment obsessing over his weight or worrying that he's unloved or unattractive because of it. (Trust me, baby, you're neither unloved nor unattractive ... and I think I can speak for a lot of people!) I worry about his relationship with his family (especially his mother). He seems to be trying really hard lately, acknowledging her. I just hope she's returning that love to him. (I also share that hope for her other children as well, especially Aaron.) I worry whether or not Nick will find someone who will love him and care for him the way he deserves to be loved and cared for. (I actually worry that for each of the guys.)

I worry that each of them won't realize how wonderfully special they all are in their own right and how much they are truly looked up to, respected and loved for who they are and not just what they do for a living, although that's an important part of them as well.

I worry that due to our excitement and enthusiasm to be near them, they fear, even for a second, for their own safety. I hope that whatever happens, they will ALWAYS think of their own emotional, physical and mental well being and not sacrifice any of that just to make us happy.

I include them in my prayers every day (and I hope you all will, too) asking God to keep them safe, healthy and happy, especially thoughout these next crazy months getting ready for and going through their tour!

[MizKitty01]

oh, lord . . I've looked at this post at least ten times before I've been able to answer . .

Out of all of them, I worry about Nick the most. He and I are startlingly alike, in age and life experience, family issue, etc. I know I've gone through really hard times and have had seriously hard repurcussions that I wouldn't want him, or anyone else, to go through. The RS article, particularly his part, made be bawl like a baby . . I worry about him endlessly . . that he'll get crushed emotionally and just fail. His relationship w/Mandy is not healthy . . even if all the rumors and '''' aren't true. He is *way* too dependent on her for his happiness. That relationship has, for the most part, has mirrored that of mine and my ex . . which ended with me three steps away from death. Where there's smoke, there's fire, and Nicky is behind a whole damn smoke screen.

AJ . . I worry about him, but not as much as Nicky. He has had it hard. I think Amanda has REALLY hurt him . . big time. I worry that his temper gets the better of him . . and that causes him trouble. But he is stronger, more experienced and older than Nick . . he *will* be okay.

Kevin . . I don't worry about. I think he's doing absolutely wonderful. I do wonder about his and Kristin's relationship, but he seems happy . . so I'm happy for him . .

Brian--- I really wonder about him. I, personally, think Leighanne is taking him for a ride and I wonder if he'll get figuratively screwed before he realizes it's a farce. But, again, if he's happy. And that's the difference between him and Nick is that Brian is in a relationship where he's happy . . Nick hasn't been happy w/her, and, like Geeze said, he'll end up w/her again.

Howie . . same as Kev. I think he's being normal and I'm happy for him . .

Amy

[SoyElDiablo]

Well, I was going to say I worry about their foot fungus or something equally retarded, but you ladies have gotten all serious with this, so I won't joke around about it. I was reading the post about how it was odd that Howie isn't settled down yet and I was just thinking that maybe he's gay. I'm not trying to be rude by saying that, I'm really serious. I mean it is a possible that he is gay. Not that there's anything wrong with that. ;) But anyway, I really don't have anything else to add because I'm no BSB expert. I just thought I'd throw that out there.

[allsaintsfan]

I really worry about when they fly esp when they did the mini tour-I just get freaked out by planes now!

[boykrazee_201]

I'm a bit concerned about all of them!!
Kevin--I'm worried about him!! He don't look good!! He looked a bit thin!! I'm not sure about his relationship with Kristin!!
AJ--I'm worried about him too!! Every since he and Amanda broke up, he hasn't been himself!! I realize he's been drinking and smoking, but I feel that he needs someone who's there for him, not Amanda!!
Brian--I'm not worried about him!! He and Leighanne are happy!!
Nick--Oh no!! I'm glad that he and Mandy are through!! I don't see him as fat, even though people say he is!! He's not ugly, he's beautiful!! I wish Nick could find someone who loves him the way he is!!
Howie--His lifestyle is on my nerves!! He lives with his parents and dates and dates and dates!! When is he ever going to settle down?

[bsbfan_vancouver]

Sometimes I worry that the group as a whole will become corrupt with all this fame and forget their roots and beliefs... (Yes, I know it's dumb, but hey... Blame my mother. She put that in my head.)

Kevin- I worry that he will break down someday because of his father's death, and the Twinkie Man thing. I just hope he and Kristin remain happy together and she provides him with a shoulder to cry on.

Brian- I don't worry about him much, I think Bri's doing pretty well! He's happy with his wife, and he has his priorities in place. I just hope Leighanne doesn't turn the tables on him.

Nicky- I worry about his self-esteem (Boy, you are NOT fat and unattractive... you are the opposite of that. Don't let stupid people get to you.) and his relationship w/ his family. He is the youngest, after all. I just hope he will find someone who can support him, and love him for who he is (NOT Mandah, my Nicky. NOT her.)

AJ- I worry about him the most. I worry that his smoking will ruin his INCREDIBLE voice, and that his drinking will ruin his life. I also worry that he will turn to drugs and all that to deal w/ his hardships w/ Amanda. And, this is weird, but when I wonder who will be the first one to die, I really don't want it to be AJ, seeing as he's the second youngest...

Howie- I wonder about what's going on in his head. I worry that he will let himself be affected by those negative comments directed at him. I worry that, after all that searching and dating, he won't find someone who's right for him (You're just not looking in the right place, my dear. I know someone who would love you for the romantic, thoughtful, loyal person you are. Right here.)

I also worry that JIVE will jump out of a dark corner and betray them somehow.

There, I poured my head out. Incredible how this was supposed to be a silly post, and then turned into this. lol

[Kev's Speedo]

bsbfan_vancouver, what "Twinkie Man" thing are you talking about?

[bsbfan_vancouver]

You know, how Kevin viewed him as kind of like a father in the begining. And then they realized Lou's real intentions, and Kevvy felt really let down.

[Kev's Speedo]

Oh, yeah, thanks. He does seem to take that the hardest out of all the guys. I just hope that he'll be able to let go of all of this at some point.

[ontour]

Howie got into the LB Playboy party because they share the same behind the scenes people.

Kevin is a very spiritual person. You can be spiritual without being into any one kind of conformed religion. Kevin delves into his spiritual side often and is always seraching for answers, like most of us that want more than what is presented in front of us on a silver platter that we are just supposed to believe because our parents or our community does.

[trisgrace]

I've always sensed that Kevin was a seeker. Having done a little searching myself, I can appreciate that. I'm just glad he finds the time to look for answers and hopes he finds them. Frankly, I don't know how you survive in his world if you don't.

[miazadora2]

Oh, gosh, what a topic! Here's what I worry about:

Nick: because he never got to be a kid, without tough responsibilities. The others were so much older when they started (well, AJ seemed mentally older and seemed more driven to succeed), and I worry that it was too much, too fast.

Brian: I used to worry about him, but the boy just looks so dang happy that I don't think I need to fret. Being married to Leighanne must be good for him!

AJ: I can understand his frustrations with his dad and not being willing to reconcile with him. When you're that age, everything is SO black and white, right or wrong. Learning the subtleties of life comes as you get older, and start understanding why your parents did what they did -- not necessarily excusing it, just understanding it a little more. But what I worry more about is the fact that he is so driven -- whatever he does, he seems to do it ALL THE WAY. Good in some cases, not so good in others. And I hope he manages to take better care of himself physically and mentally.

Kevin: I hope he's ok, and that we're not confusing his new hairstyle (or lack of hairstyle, whichever side of the Kevvy hair fence you fall on)with unhappiness/problems... but anyway, I worry about him and his anger.

Howie: I think his need for companionship is evidenced by the fact that he says he takes family with him on tour, and that he'd probably like to have a significant relationship, but won't until he can do it right. I worry that he won't ever slow down enough to let it happen, and that would be sad. Agree with Geeze that the playa thing just doesn't ring true.

Those are my worries ... wish I had funnier ones...

MiaZ

[BSBGeezerFan]

(another sigh) This started out as such a light post. Oh, well.

General
About fabric softener, a non-BSB guy (duh, of course, lol) told me that men don't care how it smells, just if it's clean (although the anal retentives (Kev and How) might). If they care if it's clean.


Kevin
You're right to worry about that Kevin-Lou thing. That Boy is a classic brooder. And a dark brooder at that. Not good. Because internalizing that pain that way will cause you to do some really self-destructive things.
Kevin said that he thought (I don't remember what he said the others thougt--oh wait, they embarrass Nick) that it was funny how a lot of the fan fics have them with enormous hoo-haa's.
I still think that Kevin though he has changed still is the Alpha male with all the attendant rights (everybody turning to him during interviews, watch, it's funny) and responsibilities (he still sweats the details and takes the guys to task whether they want to be taken to task or not). I still think he's the Dadmom though his little ones are growing up, getting facial hair, etc. I do think marriage has relaxed him some, but sometimes he's too relaxed.

Howie
I think everything bothers Howie. If it didn't, he wouldn't care so much what fans, etc., think. He would be more like he really is that that "Sweet D" image although he is the resident carer. That's why the playa thing is so hard to understand. It doesn't fit with what his image is supposed to be about. I would really like to know how the real Howie is and I don't thing we would love him less. We know that part of AJ's drinking thing is from pain. Howie's right up there with him but he won't admit it. Howie talks a lot about what he's done and what has happened to him but not how HE feels about things. If you taped Rosie (Dummo here taped OVER IT) when she talked about she and Howie downing Bahama Mamas at the Gloria Estefan do, he made the shushy gesture. Man, Howie, we know. You don't have to do that. And he said he's not even searching for that certain someone (you wish for every niiiight). And trust me, I don't think any of these things about him point to gayness. The opposite, if anything.

Brian
Seems to be in good hands, but I worry about him worrying about how loyal the fans will remain. We be here, dude!

AJ
Oh, man. He and Nick are neck and neck on the worry meter. There's the AJ he wants to be and the AJ he doesn't seem to be able to help being. Unless he's not being straight with us or himself and that's a whole 'nother set of problems. I ache for him. He's like a greyhound. All energy and nerves and edginess. You just wanna soothe him and hug him tight.

Nick
Double oh man. He just exudes vulnerability but I think underneath he may be tougher than AJ. His life would have sent a weaker person to Happy Valley by now. And he's coping by shutting down. I don't know which is worse, not crying at all or killing radios.
His latching onto something after everyone else has moved on and his undeinable resistance to change, I just love that, because I do that too. But too that is why he'll never completely leave Mandy.

And I didn't even address the worries about those things under rocks which don't even need to be turned over. Nice, now I've bummed mySELF out.

[Tania]

I agree with what everyone's said so far :(

But I have to add:
I worry about the kind of people they'll have become once this is all over.

I worry that they had to give up too much to get where they are today. This one troubles me the most because we all know they have given up a lot.

And I worry about the things that may be going on behind the scenes that are kept hidden from us.

[~KTBSPA~]

if nick will go back to willa/mandy


will a.j be happy..

[TRUEBSBFAN]

When am I NOT worrying about the Boys?

Here's just a few of the MANY worries I have about them:
1. Will Leighanne wipe Brian completely out if/when they get divorced?
2. Will Nick's low self-esteem get the best of him and he takes Mandy back?
3. Does Howie ever really get his feelings hurt when the guys (NICK!) pick on him?
4. What is really going on in AJ's head?
5. Is Kevin gonna slip someday soon and say something that will turn fans/public/media against him?
6. Will Nick ever go back to school? He needs to...
7. Who will be the first guy to decide he's had enough?
8. Why aren't Nick and Brian that close anymore? Or at least as close as they used to be?
9. AJ really needs to stop smoking...NOW!
10. Why does Howie like Ricky Martin so much?

I swear, I worry more about them than I do my own self!

[Kattime66]

this industry record.

[trisgrace]

I also worry that Kevin and Brian didn't get pre-nups, although if they're not worried, why should I be?
And I worry about what goes on behind the scenes, too. You just KNOW there's a load of crap back there.
I worry about major meltdown and I think Kevin will be the first to melt. But I think Brian will be the first to leave.

[BriansMysteryLady]

kev does have a pre-nup and it was kristin's idea

[BSBGeezerFan]

BML, how'd that happen? He indicated on Howard Stern there wouldn't be one. Give it up, girl. Not too much detail though.

[kevsmyman]

Kevin said on Howard Stern that there wouldn't be a pre nup because he knew she was with him for him and not for the money. He said that she OFFERED to sign one, he didn't say they did sign one. I don't think they had one.

I worry about all the guys actually. The stress that they are under. I mostly worry about Kevin and Nick. Kevin because he doesn't seem like himself lately. Also because he's always in such control, what will happen if he finally loses it?? Nick I worry about because his mother did such a number on him and because he has had no real life actually.

Brian and Leighanne are very happy! I've seen them together and they are very much in love. The puppies seem to be doing well also.

[BSBGeezerFan]

It worries, bothers and upsets me that they will never know just how much we love and cherish them because to a large extent what we feel is just not expressible. Just like what they mean to you is in some ways cannot be articulated.

[Suej+AJ+Kev]

Thanks for the update, kevsmyman.

I worry about stuff happening to them just like I worry about people in my real life:

Random acts of violence (crazed fan, John Lennon type of sicko killer).

Plane crashes/tour bus accidents.

But then there is the *music industry crap* that seems to happen to perfectly good groups and causes them to give it all up just to protect their sanity and/or integrity.

I worry about all the cracks in Nick's foundation (NO NOT THAT CRACK!! HIS EMOTIONAL CRACKS) I feel like he was thrown to the wolves at 13 (yes, I read Mommy's book and I didn't feel any better).

And I worry about AJ. I worry about his *excesses*. I worry that one day he will see all those tattoos and have regrets (can you say Poopy). And I worry that breaking up with Amanda will distract him from his love of performing, that his heart won't be in it.

And I worry that this obtuse amount of FAME and MONEY will ruin something precious about the true person inside them.

Oh my, I've gotten all serious, haven't I?

Sue J.

[BSBGeezerFan]

Bulletin, Suej. I tried but it went south of serious a long time ago. I just got on board and emoted right along.

[kevsmyman]

I hear ya Sue. I really worry about Nicky the most. He's the most troubled I believe.

[bsbgurl84]

1. I worry if nick is gonna wear tight enough pants to show his round butt!
2. I worry about nick's ass not jiggling enough
3. I worry and hope nick gets a boner and there's a pic of that moment hehe :)
Ok there are more things I worry about that aren't perverted
4. I worry about how everyone's gonna react to bsb not breaking the record
5. I worry about Aj's depression/alcohol/smoking problems
6. I worry about how Manduh's abuse on Nick has affected him will he be ok?? lol j/k :)

[howie's shining star]

I worry about the boys too and I know that many feel so passionate about their worries concerning the BSB. After reading everyone's post, I can say that the fans are TRULY dedicated to the Boys. I'll have to add in my two cents too:

Howie: I worry that his self-esteem gets crushed everytime a fan says something negative about him and when he doesn't feel like he's being utilized enough in the group (RS article). I want him to find the right person too but I think he is enjoying the singles club right now and as for being a Catholic and having certain morals and values...just remember that he's a human being before he is Catholic. He's doing what many people would do and NO he is not gay! He is one beautiful man! Howie, there are millions of fans out there who love you for who you are!

Nick: I pray to God that his relationship with Mandy did not scar him for life. I know that their relationship was not the best but the main thing is that Mandy loved him no matter what! Nick is a young man and he's never had a normal life (like the rest of the guys too) but he's gotten in the business at an early age and in the group at age 13. I know deep down that his self-esteem has also taken quite a few blows. But Nick should know that he is the bomb diggy and he is fine! Nick, enjoy your youth and know that there are fans that love you more than anything!

AJ: I know that he is going through tough times right now and its unfair that people make it seem like he's gonna go looney. Let's give him the benefit of the doubt! I also think that people need to take their anger out in some ways. Sometimes its necessary to deal with the pain that way. I'd rather have him bust a radio then do drugs and drink alcohol. Not that I'm condoning bashing radios everytime you get ticked off. I know his smoking is a problem too and I hope he quits soon! Anyhow, I know that AJ is a driven and ambitious type of person but I hope that he will take some time to really take things easy and reflect on the positive aspects of his relationship with Amanda. Hopefully, he will get closure some day and move on.

Kevin: I too have noticed that he has been blatant in his remarks about things. I like the feistiness and its definitely another side of Kevin. He still has issues to contend with about his father and Lou Pearlman. I don't blame him about despising Lou because Kevin was deeply hurt and Lou just pulled the wool over their eyes. Kevin (along with everyone else) was betrayed. I know that Kevin will be okay even though he's still dealing with his father's loss. Let's give him credit for dealing with so much and sacrificing his time with his beautiful wife to make us fans happy!

Brian: I know that he is in love with Leighanne and I wish the best for them. Many people think that Leighanne will turn the tables on him but I feel that we should let them be. At least Brian is happy and I rather have him in a happy, stable relationship than a pathological one. Leighanne has a great guy and it seems like she's a real sweetheart! Give her credit because she hardly sees her man and that's tough. Also, Brian is in tune spiritually and he seems to be together!

Just remember to keep them in your prayers! God has already blessed us with great music by the men we call the Backstreet Boys!
Sorry that was long! Are ya still there?!

[Edited by howie's shining star on November 28th, 2000 at 02:43 AM]

[Julie2]

This thing about Kevin--he was raised in a home that loved the Lord. His dad walked closely with God. I think at some point in his childhood or teenage years Kevin probably felt a close relationship with God too. And then his dad died suddenly, and at a fairly young age. Despite all the prayers lifted for his complete recovery. I think Kevin is angry at God for that--that so godly a man, who devoted himself to helping children delight in God by running a Christian youth camp, would be taken from his family in such a painful way. And I think Kevin has finally reached a point in his life where he has had enough time to think about this, and he's decided that he doesn't want anything to do with this God who could seem so cruel even when his children have walked with him, and done what he's asked. So Kevin is reaching out to other things, maybe in defiance, maybe in a true seeking of something that won't disappoint him and hurt him, maybe for some answers to things that can't really be answered in this lifetime. But I don't worry about Kevin right now. In fact, I'm kind of excited to see what happens because it always seems when we move the farthest away from God, that it's then we turn around and find he's still right there beside us. I think God is big enough to take whatever Kevin might fling at him right now--and if that's looking into eastern religions, or talking openly about masturbation, or acting like he just doesn't give a damn anymore, or just having these doubts of his existence at all, he can take it. God hasn't lost sight of Kevin. He's not going to let him go. He always welcomes home the prodigal.

[Krazy4Kaos]

I haven't read all the posts, so I don't know if this was posted already, but it's something I worry about. This is going to sound completely horrible, but when they were on the plane for all those hours, I kept thinking, Oh my God, what if the plane crashes? They were on the plane more than they were on the ground and it just really scared me. Thank goodness everything turned out fine, but in the back of my mind, I kept thinking that.

[bsbgymfan]

You guys I think Kevin was ok about his fathers death for a while then with the Lou's betrayal it was like "How did I picked an @sshole like this to replace a wonderful like of my father". It just brought it all back up.

I think the more success the Boys get also plays with Kevin's heart. His dad is the one who believed in him. The one who pushed him to go after this dreams. If it wasn't for his dad's determination there would be no BSB for Kevin.

The Boys did the "Show me the meaning of being lonely" video and that brought all his emotions for his father to the surface. Then Kristin said "Yes I will mary you!". Now that Kevin is married he thinks about family more. His dad never got to meet Kristin. Before the purposal she was just his girlfriend and those kinds of things rarely cross your mind. That's why Kevin wanted to have the wedding somewhere close to the heart of his father.

Also Kevin has recently found out that companies for years polluted the water that his family drink and swam in. Those are the kinds of things that cause cancer. That's why Kevin is so into the Eviroment now.

Like someone earlier said-Kevin is spirtural. He wants to find the truth what ever that may be. Seeking truth is always good rather it seems so at the time.

Kevin is also sensitive but strong as well. Kevin is blunt. I don't think that is anything to worry about. He won't allow someone to lay him or his low!! I think being blunt is also his way of keeping the other boys in line and it provokes a reaction from them. It makes them let out their real feelings.

I do worry about K&K's relationship. I think no "P.D.A.'s" got planted deeply into his brain. Kevin is always more at ease with her in public when it's her tuff-ie:The movie premieres and the oscar party. I think he worrys about how people will respond to her. Time will ease that. It's got to be hard for her though.

The one think I worry about Kevin is those pain killers that were prescribe for his knee. You know how easy it is to become addicted :(-That's all Kevin needs.

I also worry that Lou&others keeping him from singing lead has left Kevin thinking his voice isn't good enough :(

Nick said Kevin's strong and has been though a lot. I will agree with Nick!!!

As for my worries for Nick we won't even go there!! :(

BBSGYMFAN!!

[CSUchica]

I've already commented on what makes me worry about the boys but I just wanted to tell you how touched I was by your statement. I don't think I've ever read an account of someone's struggle so well. I went through a similar phase about a year ago, not really studying other faiths just questioning my own, and when all was said and done, I was let right to my bible, where I always went when I needed guidance. I didn't mean to ramble I just wanted to tell you how much that made me think. (The guys spititual health is something I worry about ALL the time too)

Ebony

[BriansMysteryLady]

speaking of kev and the environment did you guys see the news article on http://backstreetm.cjb.net